[Codo]

From what I noticed you're getting better. Was I wrong?

No. Occationally I relapse, but I've found ways to deal with it. I realized that my thoughts and feelings are absolutely meaningless. Things will happen either way.

The Killer Cars come to mind

The thing is, occationally I'm dead right. I have a reputation for having keen observation skills. If I knew I was wrong about everything, it would be much more easier for me to break this thought pattern.
For example, there were some suspicious cars in our village, which I pointed out, but I was brushed off as paranoid. And later there was an attempted burglary. So it's likely that the cars belonged to burglars who were spying for good places to raid.
But once you are adapted to seeing hidden patterns and accepting unlikely possibilites (or what is generally perceived as such) as an explanation, you see them EVERYWHERE. There is a very fine line between this kind of open-minded/intuitive reasoning and paranoia/delusions. And I crossed this line more than once.
I should give it up and go back to strictly evidence based reasoning, for the sake of my own sanity and happiness.

But I just try to do what I'm supposed to. It's good to occupy the brain with something more so it doesn't have time to worry. It's hard but possible. And much easier if there's a deadline

That's what I'm trying to do. And I'm over the deadline, while this shit is still going in endless circles, so I'm trying to go back to a normal life. It never REALLY happened anyway.
It was stupid to adjust my real life choices around things that only happened on the internet and/or in my head.